TIGER - CHAPTER IV – UNDERGROUND – RAFAEL LUDICANTI
1.
I retraced the undone
memory path.
I realized that
it was your heart that was beating.
Your uncertainty
about survival
was greater
than my
youth.
You are not free.
You are freedom.
2.
The beggar silenced us
with his elegance.
Hungry,
only he knew how
to ignore us.
The jacket
overwhelmed by
the ordeal
of freedom
and the whiskey bottle
full of cachaça
shattered
the stupidity
of New Year's Eve.
3.
The glorious defeat
of justice
has indexed us
to the marble index
of contemporary civilization
strangling the elite
in the slums of
prostitutes and
lawyers.
4.
She fed her innocence
with her libido.
There was an abyss
over our heads.
I fell asleep
on the blade
because the
powder stuffed pillows
were missing
the pillow
case.
5.
Without imagining what
we would do
when it was our turn
and now
our turn
has come.
I'm sorry if
imagination doesn't
create context
but now that
everything has become real
tell me:
who are you?
6.
Inspiration did not
intervene
in the catatonic mentality
contained in
the exchange of
obstacles that our
life has become.
Starting over was
a premature
ending.
7.
I miss my friends
I miss so
many things.
Everything.
The solemnity.
The spontaneous joy.
The relief of knowing
I was not alone.
8.
The story of my passions
is bigger than
my story.
I'm as sad
as a love song
as silent as the
explosion of
a supernova
perpetuating
itself
in the void.
9.
The competition
brought her
back.
She arrived
with her ruined smile
and her devotion to
war
disguised
as childhood
in a smile that once had
the air of a relic.
10.
The colors of her heretical
body flames
could be seen
even with her eyelids
closed.
There was an
uncontrollable joy
in the air,
a scent of crackling
religion that made god irresistible.
11.
I tried to take a deep
breath but there
was a lot of
water in the
sea and the obsession
of thirst had
the languor of a rifle shot.
I was everything that
was missing from me.
12.
I'm the last purebred
romantic rebel.
Willing to die happy
for my beliefs
with tears
of longing
and a delicate
farewell
smile
on my lips.
13.
Slowly
I became aware
of the distractions
of my mind.
Trusting you
was an
inconvenience
even though you've
become so
unique.